I'll never get where I want to be, I swear it's not physically possible to do so.

I want to loose 20-30 pounds, that's far too much to ask for basic working out I think.....

Also, I've always hated doing weights, especially in front of other people. I can't do those. All the other machine's I'm fine with, but no barbells of any kind.

I just hate how I look, some of you say I'm fine and others say " Some people like chubby boys" so that's a total indicator that I'm as bad as I think I am.

Seriously, I don't know what to do, I don't think exercise will completely remedy this....

You NEED to be confident. There are no special instructions on how to become confident. You almost have to force yourself to be confident, but that's part of being confident: just going ahead and doing it.

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"Herb is the healing of a nation, alcohol is the destruction."
-Bob Marley

My boyfriend is a "chubby" guy but I still love him. I've been with him for two years, and with loving his personality and other wonderful traits, I am very attracted to him.

Just do what you can for your body, exercise and eat right, but don't focus all of your energy on it.

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"Herb is the healing of a nation, alcohol is the destruction."
-Bob Marley

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I just really can't stand myself, no matter how hard I try I'm just not good enough in my own eyes...

 
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I think I'm gross, and I'm just depressed about it. I've been doing exercises, but they won't get me to where I'd like to be...I'm just trash, no girls would ever want a guy with a body like that.

I'm gonna be going to the gym more soon, but it's just gonna be so long, and I don't want to have to feel this way anymore...

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