Quite possibly the stupidest idea I've had since my suicide attempt, there's this abandoned section of houses (used to be a children's home) a few streets away. It's fenced off and pretty remote.
..I really wanna set it on fire.
I'm not really allowed out of the house without a friend or family, someone watching me to make sure I don't do anything stupid, and my friends wouldn't agree to do this, can't say I blame them.
I could pretend I was going out with a friend, go buy some flammable stuff, hop the fence and watch it burn.
I don't even know why I wanna do it, the idea just seems amazing Don't get me wrong, I understand how insane this is.
I just don't really care, I wanna watch it burn.
I know I'll probably be caught, but I guess I could just go down with it.
My therapist is on holiday, and I wouldn't even tell her if she wasn't, she'd tell my parents and things would be even more fucked up.
How do I stop myself from doing this?
Half of me is just saying this is fucking insane, and the other half wants to see it BURN.
shit, wtf do I do?
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