i have had the same dream every night since i was raped.
a nightmare about the gun in my shoulder and him breaking me, and actually hearing pain like the static between radio stations.
i wake up screaming. every time. i REALLY want to talk to my friend about it. the rape, i mean. he's always been there for me, adn i've always been there for him. i don't know how to just say it out of nowhere, you know? because he KNOWS i've been raped. he KNOWS THAT. i need to tell someone what....i need to tell HIM what happened.
but i don't know how to bring it up.
should i tell him about the dream and see where it goes from there?
i need to tell him.
he'd want me to tell him.
i need to.
but how do i do it without sounding like i onnly want attention?