My Parents died about three months ago. So I had to move up to Maryland. I never felt close to my parents I felt depressed when I had to be with them they made me feel terrible like I was a monster. So I never told them that I was gay. I knew they wouldn't accept it. I hate to say it but it's kind of a releaf that they are not here. Sure I miss them they were family but they made me fell terrible about my self. They wanted me to be just like my sister who is in college now. I am glad because she abused me when my parents died. I really didn't want to say it but she did I felt hated by everyone. When she finally got into college she said I have to go she was going to put me into foster. Well she threated me but luckly I got a call from my Aunt & Uncle who I use to never see but they knew my sister was going to college so they told me when she leaves for college they would take care of me. I was excited but nervouse because she was the sister of my mom. If she was anything like my mom I thought I was going to die. Well it turns out she is way more open nice and reasonable. ;) My Uncle is just the same. Her youngest daughter is great she is pretty much my sister I wish I had and my best friend. She is a year older than I am. And I have only met her older daughter once but what I met of her she seemed pretty cool and so did her Fianc`e.  Man I am tired of telling that story.

    Sorry for the long intro. See as you can see I have never had a good relationship with my family. So I have been dyeing to tell my family I am -. But I was terrfied that they accept me. They are my last chance of a good family and if they didn't support me no one would. Because I am in a new state and a new school I have barely any friends and if they didn't except me then no one would help me. But now that I know my cousin accepts me she can help me find friends if my friends don't accept me.
So this is how I told them. I started with my cousin first. I knocked on the door and she was like come in. I said hey can I talk to you her reply : "Yeah sure you can talk to me about anything come in sit down". At that moment I felt a tiny bit of hope and releaf. I said "This is really important and very serious". I paused and she said "Go ahead I am listening". My head was spinning I was ready to blurt it out. I took a deep breath and said "I know I bearly know you and I am not sure how you will you react but I have to tell some one" I took another breath "emmmm..... I have feelings for guys I like them... I started speaking really fast, I just can't help it but it is killing me I can't hold it in any longer they just have something I can't resist. I am sorry if you don't accept it, but I need you''I bit my lip nervosly. She stood up not really an expression on her face and she hugged me. I took a deep breath. I was so releaved. She looked at me and said "ahhh you..... she paused.... Don't worry everything will be alright I love you and the months I got to really know have been great you are starting to feel like more like a brother to me each and every day. I love you and respect you for telling me. I know your life hasn't been so eaisy. .... Their was a quick slience an she said do you want to tell my mom and dad?" I said " Yeah, will they be as accepting as you?" She said " Absolutly we will be behind you 100 % we are an easy family you can talk to any of us. I will be right by you if you need help." I said "thanks your great."
So it's right before dinner and we went down strairs to the kitchen.
    My cousin had an exciteded smile on her face they knew something was up.  I looked at them both with an unsure smile, and said "Can we talk real quick" they said " Yeah sure whats up" I replyed " Well this is very important, and I would really apprieate your support. I am sorry if you don't but I can't help it I have been trying to hide this for a couple of years well since seventh grade actually. I can't hide this any more. I have feelings for guys and can't help it I am -. I am sure too I have tried to have feelings for girls it just never worked out and I have always been turned down by them.  And when ever I try to find a girl to date I start thinking about guys there is something about them I just can't help it". And here is another pause They smiled and said "We respect you and we will support you through everything don't worry you can talk to us about evrything." They hugged me and said so are you hungry " I said "Yes" but I wasn't I just didn't want to run away so I ate, and then well here I am typeing this to tell everyone how releaved I am. :) Thank you for reading. Sorry it is so long.

Special thanks to: Yeahboii, and robdude for there help.