I feel like I'm being tortured.  I know that honestly, things could be a lot worse.  I know this isn't THAT bad but it feels horrible.  I have so much pressure in my head it feels like it's going to explode.  

I'm bored and lonely but I know that, like yesterday, if i try to go out and see people I will realize that I don't have the energy for that.  When I'm out all I want to do is go home and when I'm home all I want is to go do something.

I know that I should eat something.  All I've eaten today was a hand full of nilla wafers with some peanut butter and that was around 11am.  My stomach tells me to eat but I go into the kitchen and can't decide what to eat.  I started to cook some mac and cheese and I couldn't do it.  I through a fit and ended up on the floor crying.  I feel so pathetic.

Things are not right.  I was once at peace with myself (at least most of the time) and now everything just feels all wrong.  I'm so anxious and irritable and everything just feels wrong.

I know it's my body adjusting to not having that nicotine.

I know I can't afford to keep smoking.  It costs too much money.  Plus it's not healthy to smoke.

I feel so pathetic though. ARG.  I'm sorry I just needed to vent.

Anyone out there quitting too? Anyone out there already gone through this and want to talk?

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Different =/= wrong