I don't think love is as elusive an emotion as people make it out to be. Love is just a more mature infatuation. Infatuation is when teenagers devote to much of their thoughts to some person when really they don't even know that person that well. Love is just having absolute emotional attatchment to a person, knowing them very well, but not being so obsessed with them that they interfere with your friendships or your career or whatever.
I'm in love with a girl right now, and I know her very well. When I'm with her my mood sky-rockets. When shes happy or excited about something, of course I'm happy or excited. When shes really sad about something I'll usually spend the night with her and we'll drink and talk alot. I love being able to see her sadness turn into a carefree happiness just because she talked to me for a while.
And she is the sexiest girl I can think of. When I see her in the morning in short shorts or a big T-Shirt or whatever I always get the same feeling of "God shes beautiful" and "God shes sexy" mixed into one.
But the best part is that she doesn't interfere with my life. I'll have a week where I don't even really see her, though I usually don't not talk to her for more than 3 days. I still spend time with my friends and time doing my own things, and then whenever I spend time with her it's a billion times better.
This is what I like the most about how I've matured with relationships. In that respect when I was younger I used to devote to much of my thoughts or emotions to a relationship. I'd blow off my friends to hang with my girlfriend or blow off things I enjoy doing. I've matured in that respect to the point that I just have a heathy balance of my own life and relationships when I'm in one. I enjoy spending days with my friends and spending time playing my guitar more than I do going to see my girlfriend EVERY SINGLE DAY of the week.
EDIT: But sadly I'm not with this girl. I was during the summer, and it crashed.
I see the oppurtunity to get with her again, but I don't know if it's going to happen soon or not. I can't help that I love her though, and she knows that I do. I told her to dump her boyfriend for me because he was a fag, and she went for it for a while it seemed like. Things happened and it fell through though sadly.
Now I'm just in this limbo of what I think is actually between friends zone and potentially dating her. She seems stand offish because of how shitty our past relationship turned out, but that was mostly because we had a "one night stand" the first day we hung out and for some reason ended up going out a day later. Which was of course a horrible mistake.
Post edited at 7:16 pm on Oct. 13, 2008 by Acid World
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